I'm Lost

Sorry I've been gone, I've just been busy

So after thinking to myself for a long time, I've decided to come back. I have never been so busy in my life until this year.

I feel so lost lately. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I can't even hear myself think because I'm so stressed out

And I'm so tired of studying for the exam every month, but everything depends on it. Ughhhh..... I'm so sick of everything in life having to deal with "tests" it seems like you can't do anything until you make high or pass a test 

I just want a break :(  Like there's nothing I want more than to be done with school and actually move on with my life and do something I love and enjoy.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things, but I can't..... 

Day 15 - Where Will You be in 5 years?

I can't even guess where I'll be in 5 years because 5 years ago I didn't expect myself to become who I am now. I don't know about  my future, but I have a plan and hopefully things go as planned but if not, I know Allah has another plan for me

So where will I be in 5 years?

Hmm I will graduated from university, be a doctor at hospital and be someone wife HEHEHHEHEHEHEHE

Day 14 - 3 Healthy Habits

My Healthy Habits:

1. I love fruit and I could eat fruit all day
2. I drink so much water, I have about 10 bottles a day or more
3.  I'm actually trying to become vegetarian because I have phobia of uncooked chicken, but I'm a meat lover.......

Day 13 - What's Inside Your Fridge

Wow my fridge is so full :(

Day 12 - Your Favorite Childhood Book

Day 12 - Your My Favorite Childhood Book

I was fan of Peter Rabbit when I was young Kid. I even have a tea cup with him on it :) 

Day 11 - 10 Favorite Foods

Day 11 - 10 Favorite Foods

I wanna loose weight but I love food too much and food loves me. All I think about all day is what am I gonna eat for dinner hahaha

1. KFC. I love KFC Chicken Skin
2. Sushi.. Uh Guys please, who doesn't like sushi?
3. Steak. Yes I Meet Lover.
4. Bakso Malang.
5. Calamari.  I love seafood, especially squid and crab
6. Tom Yam. I Love spicy food so much!!!
7. Nachos with extra avocado sauce hmm perfect!
8. Lasagna.
9. Instant Noodle.

Day 10 - Best Trip Of Your Life

Day 10 - Best Trip of Your My Life

Texas, 2011

The best part of my trip was spending 3 weeks with my friends.

Malaysia, 2013

I Love Legoland. I swear they have the cutest games on planet earth

Day 9 - What's In Your Bag

Day 9 - What's In Your My Bag

My ZARA Backpack

I'm in University and still wear backpack hehehe and I've been wearing this since highschool. I Love my backpack but My sister said that I'm too old to wear backpack ugh 

 (And I hate Jansport backpack, cause everyone has one ugh #random) 

1. Notebook, Textbook and Pencil case
2. Cosmetic Pouch. Ugh I Love Elmo!!!
3.Hush Puppies Wallet
4. L'OCCITANE Hand Cream
5. Etude Facial Mist
6. Earphone
7. Name Tag
8. Chewing Gum
9 Flash-disk
10. Ninna Ricci Parfum

Day 8 - 5 Current Goals

Day 8- 5 Current Goals.

1. Start my diet. Ah ya the diet always starts tomorrow. And I've said this like 10 times hehehe
2. Saving money for YG Family Tour Concert. YAYYYY!!!
3. STUDY MORE!!!!!
4. Listen More, Talk less. We have two ears and one mouth. Follow the ratio.
5. Pray More. When we pray, Allah hears more than we say, and answers more than we ask.

Day 7 - Your 5 Favorite Songs

Day 7 - Your My 5 Favorite Songs

1. Fix You - Coldplay 
I love all the songs of Coldplay and there are no words for how much I love Coldplay.

2. Wedding Dress - Taeyang
I love his voice. and his eyes, He has the cutest eyes ever hehehe.
And I really miss the old Taeyang with his mohawk hair :( . To be honest, I have never liked a guy in a mohawk, Until he came... and yes I miss Wedding Dress era

3. Stop And Stare - OneRepublic 
For some reason I love Stop and Stare, no matter how many times they play it on the radio. And sometimes I feel that OneRepublic tries so hard to be like Coldplay and I am in a Love Hate Relationship with it.

4. How Deep Is Your Love - The Bird and The Bee
The Bird & The Bee did a cover that's just as good as the original in my opinion. . Everything about it is perfect both musically and lyrically. and for me, this is the best love song ever.

5. Chasing Pavements - Adele 
She was amazing in her first album and I love "19" more than "21" because it's more bluesy. And also Adele wasn't mainstream when I first heard it haha.

Day 6 - What are you afraid of?

My biggest fear is losing people. There is nothing I can do to change when I lose somebody and that is what scares me the most. I don’t understand death, no one does, and there is nothing I can do to change anything. When someone that I love walks out on my life, or dies, I don’t know how to react. I fell handicapped, trapped, like a little kid, because I just can’t comprehend life without them

Day 5 - Your Proudest Momment

Day 5 - Your Proudest Moment

When I made my parents proud by Getting into medical school. I knew its only a beginning but seeing their happy face made me happy.

and 

When I left the past behind...  so I could embrace the future.

Day 4 - Your Dream Job

So, I was looking hard to find the reason of my whole life. 

What would make me proud of myself? 
What would make my parents proud of my self? 
What I want to be?  
and Why? 

I had no clue and It took me several years, to answer this question....

And When I was around 17,  I decided that I wanted to be a doctor of some kind. No idea what, just that I wanted to help people, and have a job I can be proud of. And now I am in my first year of Medical school and really can't believe I'll actually live that dream. 

Sometimes school and life gets tough and sometimes I'm afraid that I won't be able to pursue the career but I truly believe that no matter what I will find a way.

Day 3 - Your Favourite Quote

Day 2 - 20 Facts About You

DAY 2 - 20 Facts About You Me

Ugh I just can't write about myself. It's so much easier to write about other people but writing about myself just..... weird.

Let's start....

1. Rianti is my middle name. It's not mean that I hate my first name ok. 

2. I'm 18. But my parents still treat me like I'm 10 and I still gotta ask my parents for permission to do anything and everything. lol. But still I'm happy with them.

3. Sometimes, some people ask me "Are you Arabian or Indian?" The answer is no. I'm Indonesian. But yes my grand grand father is Arabian.

4. I'm medical student. I am sure some people will think it's cool, but in reality....

5.  I have one older sister and she is my partner in crime

6.  I do not eat chicken, but I love KFC SO MUCH. I know it's ridiculous...

7.  I'm a really, really, really impatient person. It's bad, and I admit it.

8. I really enjoy playing Harvest Moon on the PlayStation

9. Family time is my favorite. My parents and my sister both have such busy lifestyles these days that we really value our time together.

10. The first concert I ever went to was BIG BANG ALIVE CONCERT, and YESSS I'M VIP!

11. I am very lazy! My sister says my laziness is like the number eight, infinity.

12. I speak to myself when I’m alone. And the best part, in different languages. I don’t really even notice it anymore, I just happen to comment everything aloud when I’m alone.

13. I am very much a night owl. My natural sleep schedule is to wake up at around 12 or 1pm and then stay up until about 5 am. 

14.  I love flying. I love going on airplanes, sitting on those long airplane rides, and eating airplane food. I love the anticipation that I will soon be in a new destination. I love picking up my luggage and going out those gates and starting a new adventure.

15.  I have  bracelet that I’ve been wearing since I went back from Texas in March 2010. and it’s really significant to me because I never wear jewelry on my arms

16. I have no grammar skills 

17. I really do love to cook and experiment with food.

18. I'm really short, only 5'2". 

19. I can  spend my whole day inside my room, as long as I have my food, my books, and my internet with me.

20. One of my New Year’s resolutions is definitely: more time for myself!

2014 & 30 Day Blogging Challenge.

2013 was a tough year. But still I thank Allah for 2013's blessings, the tough lesson learnt, the smiles & cries, the faces that came & accepting those that left. Let's hope for a better year ahead and start 2014 with a prayer.

"Today is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one"

and yes I'm going to start my first blank page with 30 Day Blogging Challenge. Yay so excited!

Day-1 YOUR BLOG'S NAME

Ugh I admit that I’m the obsessive one when it comes to selecting a name cause I believe that a good name can also bring a good things. But after all, that hard work just.... no satisfaction result, so I decided to give it up and use the first name that came across my mind. And then Lost&Found just came to me.

--  Lost&Found is an office where visitors can go to retrieve lost articles that may have been found by other visitors. --

And why Lost&Found? 

Hm Sometimes I feel like I'm lost. But my other-self keep saying that "You are not lost. You are finding yourself. and Sometimes when you lose your way, it's really just as well cause you find yourself."

see... I was just about to give up, but suddenly come out that idea lol.

once again.... HAPPY NEW DAY, NEW MONTH, NEW YEAR, NEW BLOG

xx

R